Something to long for.

I know that I should go
But in spite of what I know
I am still compelled to stay here for awhile.

And if I fall apart
Around the remnants of my heart
I'll never say that it wasn't all worthwhile.

So I can take my life as is
Or I can be jealous of his
The one with you in it, that is
And the place that I long for.

And I confess it so sincere
I never meant to fill you with my fear.
As I tried to guide myself away from this.

And though I appear so self-involved
I took note of everything as it dissolved
And I will sing it back to you and reminisce

So was this all by my design?
Will they put me in the firing line?
And if offered would I decline
The things that I long for?

Don't look at me that way
I'm not some tired old cliché
It's taken me all this time to find out what I need

But while I hoped and dreamed
Leaving you alone and unredeemed
You picked up and carried on with stunning speed

So I'll look on and smile
And with every passing mile
I'll be with you all the while
Towards something you long for.